I was going through my stuff and found this letter from a stranger who became an angel and a friend later. It was the time when I was going through a very rough stage in my life. When I look back now it feels like eternity and I can’t believe that I was so upset in my life at that point due to the people whom I loved and cherished once and who hurt me the most in my life. I might not have shared this a year ago but now that I am out of that situation and have become a much stronger and happier person in life then I would like to share this letter that I recieved from a person who saved my life and stood by me that night. It was christmas party that I wanted to go to make sure I get a bit of a change from my current life’s problems and get my mind away from the problems. It was the fear of my ex that took over after few drinks and I panicked that night. Then worst happened and I was lucky to find some angles that night to save my life and help me realise no matter how much people hurt you or damage your life but there are others selfless souls in this world who spread peace and love. And that makes me feel that there is absolutely no reason to give up on people who are no good for you or who treat you mean and create problems in your life. But rather think about the nice people around and the goodness in this world and have hope and love in your heart. Thanks to those people who saved me and whom I would always be grateful to. So here goes the letter:
Nicole and I (photo attached) were there from the start til the very end so I’m happy to meet with you to discuss it, or below is basically the details of the event.
At about 10.30, while we were all sitting in a circle chatting, we noticed you were rather intoxicated.
Within minutes, you collapsed to the floor.
Rich (photo attached – only one I have on my phone) grabbed you up to sit up but you fell back down. So he laid you on your side until the medical guys that were on site arrived.
We took you into a side room. At this point, there were only Nicole, Rich, Pauline and I, including the staff of Town Hall and party organisers, and the med guys were in the room trying to assist.
At this point, your heart rate dropped and there was a 50/50 chance. You were severely in shocked and body was not coping well. I dont believe they performed CPR but they had to put a lot of pressure on your chest due to your heart beat slowing right down. The med guys decided that you needed to be taken to hospital.
As you arrived to the party with no one and Pauline and Rich had to go, Nicole and I volunteered to be present with you in the ambulance and at the hospital.
Whilst in the ambulance I made all attempts to get an emergency contact details through work place, but to no avail. We also went through your phone and attempted to contact Kunal whom wasn’t able to come due to no transportation. At this point, we were already aware your situation with regards to your ex (as you had mentioned it to Pauline and we were informed so that we could treat this matter carefully)
We saw numbers on the phone from text messages that we knew not to call.
Upon arriving at the Sydney hospital the nurse took a breath test, and unfortunately you were 4 times over the limit. This was consumed within 2-3 hours max. We knew the mental and emotional state you were in but we had no idea whether you had taken any pills prior or not. You were admitted to emergency. This was about midnight. Nicole and I stuck by you til 2.30. During this time, you were still quite in shock and intoxicated. Towards the end, you gained some consciousness and became more aware of the situation ie you being at the hospital. You got up to Nicole and I. You opened up a lot to us about the AVO and personal situation. You managed to give us your address in North shore., as we of course didn’t want to take you back to the address on your licence for your safety. A lot was said by you which I truly hope one day soon it will be over and brighter days for you. We even got to the point where both shed tears because you spoke of ending your life to find peace. I have had friends that passed away and one committed suicide. I showed you a tattoo on my arm of my friend and told you that not a day go by, I dont feel hurt by the selfish act of my friend. So please, I hope you dont do anything silly to yourself. I dont know you well enough but I know you are in a bad place, but I do believe that what happens today makes us stronger tomorrow for brighter days ahead. At 2.30 I spoke to the nurse and she informed me that we didnt have long at the hospital as at this stage you were no longer in danger and not life threatening. We escorted you out onto the road and attempted to get a taxi. At 3am we managed to get one, and Nicole lives over the bridge so she took you home first, ensured you got into your place ok and she left to go home. I live in Waterloo so I left as soon as you guys got a cab.
It was a night that we all didn’t expect but it does happen. Do not feel embarrassed. If you were a drunk and its a common thing then I would have stuck by you but due to the fact that you had a lot going on, it was the right thing to do to ensure your safety comes first.
I hope you are feeling much better now and you said you are seeking help from a counsellor. I truly hope it works out as you seemed like a really nice person that wants nothing but happiness and to live a normal life. Stay strong and know that you are not alone. I am only a phone call away if you need a friend OK.
I am not sure what kind of problems you might face in life but smaller or bigger we all are capable to choose a life for ourself and lead a life with happiness if we are willing to. So don’t feel embarrased about things that have happened in your life as we all have a past. But its the choices we make in our present and its the decisions we make to corrct them that matters the most.
A warm and kind hug from a friend – Kavita
“I would rather be dreaming than living,
Living is just too hard to do.
Its chances not choices,
Noises not voices, Day is just to hard to get through.”
These lines made me think how easy it is sometimes to loose hope. But rough times are only there to remind us that we need to change whatever we are doing and get back to the good things to make it a better start and a better life for ourselves. I have changed, in last one year my life has taken several turns and as a person I have developed a lot, learned a lot and found a new me. In this journey I went through different phases – phase when I was giggly, phase when I was calm and happy, phase when I was upset, phase when I was sad and depressed, phase when I had this unknown fear of new things, phase when I found this new courage in me to do stuff which I never thought I could do before. It was amazing how life has changed so much in just one year. Now when I look back and see where I was and where I have come, I can see what all choices I made and what all options I created myself. I would never regret any of it and if given a second chance I don’t think I would like to change any thing either. I am standing in a booth in the airport, about to embark on another adventure this year, thinking how many people I have met and how many lives I have learned about. The roller coaster of emotions have been overwhelming at times and I have been stubborn not to face the truth several times but yet I have come so far and that’s what makes us all who we are. We keep going in this journey of life and things happen but the truth is ‘it shall too pass’ no matter what. Thats’ why it’s very important to keep your head down a little when time is bad and think ‘it shall too pass’ and keep the light shining in your eyes when you know time is little to enjoy the good things that are happening in life. Make choices that comes from your heart and every once in a while try to disconnect yourself from rest of the world and think about who you are and what you would like to do if rest of the world didn’t exist or didn’t matter, those would be few things that would lead you to the light hidden in your subconscious that might be worth discovering.
I am still learning, every day and every moment as some passes me in my sleep and some catches my fancy when I am awake. But this journey is worth enjoying as we don’t have another life to wait for or loose this one to find another one. Things that haven’t happened yet doesn’t exist in this universe, things that have happened are lost on the way, only things that are happening to you are worth thinking about and living those moments in them. Rest all is just a creativity of your mind as not even a single thing other than present is really true. So try not to focus on past too much as it would take away the time you have to relish your present and don’t plan too much for future as that might have nothing to do with your imagination. I don’t say leave everything and chase your dream yet as before that you might have to go on a journey of self discovery and then only you would know what dreams are real and what are just fantasy that you just picked up on the way. As while going through my own self discovery journey I have learned that the dreams that I had when I was a child have changed quiet a lot. I have got a different understanding of the world and more awareness of myself. I would still like to stay in touch with myself and learn more and more about this world and myself and things are changing every moment as I am writing this and as you are reading this. But that’s brings variety in life as change is the only constant and we need to learn to change in order to survive or rather I should say that we should become change and rest will follow.
With hope and smile, welcome every new day. It might be sunny and beautiful someday whereas it might be raining and cloudy some other times (as we have in Sydney these days). But remember ‘this shall too pass’. Life is not hard its just the choices we make some time that lead us to certain difficulty in life. And once we are aware of this then we make an effort to give it a thought before making any choice. I don’t say wait for too long as the opportunity might pass otherwise but don’t get into mad rush and run blindly everywhere. Open your eyes as even if you end up on a difficult path you would be able to figure out a way out.
To all my friends out there in sadness and happiness, in need of a friend or in need of a voice to help them. This might not give you everything you need but this might help you to think few things on your own and find your own path in life.
Hello My Fellow Bloggers,
I am trying to do things in my bucket list as you know and my apology not to be regular with writing as I have been few training and that takes quiet a lot of my time. Salsa and Martial arts are two of them as per my bucket list for this year. I would continue to learn these but I am here to share my experience with you all. Here is a link for my bucket list if you haven’t read it yet.
A little bit different and another post about the fears I have in my life with a reflection of other reader’s experiences along with it.
Item #7: Learn dancing – Preferably street dancing or salsa
Yes it was in my bucket list to learn Salsa and I have been doing it with some social dancing involved. It’s been fun and some really awesome weeks learning this dance. Also I have made lots of friends due to this so my advice would be if you like dancing, then go ahead and learn Salsa. It’s fantastic to have fun and make great friends. I have always loved dancing but it was on my own as either hip hop or some individual style but I never knew how much fun it can be if you do it with a partner and also the mystery behind anticipating the move from the other side and just follow the signs while dancing to co-ordinate the next move.
Special thanks to Go Dance and the crew as they are just amazing. If you are in Sydney and want to learn Salsa then Go Dance is one of the best place to start. They also are giving a free lesson every Sunday at iQ’VIVA. They are like a family that you get when you become a part of this group and I would be enrolling for the Latin Dance Academy next year to get more serious about it
Hello My Lovely Fellow Bloggers,
A smile and hug from Sydney. I had an amazing weekend this time like many others and I am back to share some stories and experience with you including my bucket list adventure. Here is a link for my bucket list if you haven’t read it yet.
A little bit different and another post about the fears I have in my life with a reflection of other reader’s experiences along with it.
It was a lovely day with a little bit of wind due to which the waves were a little choppy which was not ideal to be able to stand on the board on my first lesson, but I still loved it. And if you can see me sitting on the board in yoga pose then it was due to the choppy waves that didn’t let me stand too long. But I would try it again once the rain in Sydney stops this summer as I loved the whole experience. My friend Alyssa was like a super woman as she had Mr. Ecko (her dog) with her as well and she managed to make him sit still on the second half of the ride. Mr. Ecko was so brave that he kept his calm all the way to the shore and I really admire that. We had Michelle as my awesome instructor. Thanks to her I was brave enough to try it as well I must say. She is our friend and a great coach as well. So here you go – some pictures for you to enjoy with me.
I know what I am looking for,
I am in pursuit of happiness in form of love,
I am searching the truth everywhere but in myself,
How can I lit the whole world when the light is switched off inside me.
I have yet not figured it all out as I guess truth is always simple,
But we human beings love complexity and love to twist everything a bit too much.
Hence I guess I have complicated the simple thing in life,
And look whats happening – I am running around like a dog chasing it’s own tail.
Yes I know that sounds harsh but why can’t I just sit still,
When I know it’s deep in me and all I have to do is accept it.
Why do I love to make myself feel important when I am nothing,
Why do I have to part of something that makes sense to me when I am part of this whole universe.
Why do I have to question everything and think that love would come from somewhere,
I am waiting for that so called true love which I have lost in myself,
Here I am crying for help when it was my will to step out of my comfort zone,
Here I am trying to find some one to love me when I have stopped loving myself.
I am praying here to find that light inside me that would lit my soul,
I am dying to see myself in that light that would give me my trust back,
I am here calling for help to know what is there within me,
Here I am breathing into the very motion of universe to set my soul free.
What’s that I am searching deep within my soul,
What’s that makes me restless and opens a new hole.
Is it the emptiness that makes me terrified,
Or the knowledge that I am here with myself in this light.
What’s this noise that awakes me in the middle of the night,
Why my dreams take me to the places I have never been before.
I am not sure what’s real and what’s fiction anymore,
My eyes are numb and there is nothing to store.
All I remember is that I was happy for a while,
This was supposed to lead me to some truth I was trying to find.
Or it has made me even more confused in this very life,
I am not sure and not sure if I ever will be in my life.
Rain taps my shoulder as if telling me to keep going,
It gives me some freshness melting me in my eyes.
I close them to feel it in the core of my heart,
I choose to see them from these very eyes.
Why is it like this that every time I think I find myself,
I loose myself in the very beginning of the trail.
I go on this treasure hunt and find myself in the middle of this cage,
Where there is no one to look for but my left out soul.
Another day doing something new that I never done before and feel how it feels like. My life was different before this year and now suddenly after 11 months I feel like a new person almost after doing so much and after seeing so much in such a little time. Or I can say I just opened my eyes and being awake mostly now. It’s been a year of learning, year of forgiveness, year of love and awakening and year of fulfillment that I never felt before. But that so doesn’t mean that it’s over, as they say it is just the beginning.
One of the things on my bucket list was to see how it feels like when you are part of the film making crew and see if I want to do something in that field. I have always been fascinated with movies in Hollywood and I guess it was worth trying to be a part of something that was going to be there forever. I was part of the crew for a short film making and it was a good learning for me for the years to come I must say. And it helped me completing my bucket list’s item number 44. If you don’t know what all things I have listed in my bucket list for this year then here is a link for my bucket list for 2013. My Promise to live life – My BucketList 2013
A little bit different and also another post about the fears I have in my life with a reflection of other reader’s experiences along with it. My Fears
Life has taken new turns into few new directions,
So much has changed since this year when I look back upon.
My life was in a different corner back then,
And I have come a long way to change it since then.
Its a roller coaster ride and till this day it still is sometimes,
I have been through happy and sad moments.
That have some bad and good restorations,
Loved the time I was with friends and met some strangers.
Its all part of learning and it is the way you want to carve your life,
Some self preservation and some self reflection.
When you think about the goals it seems tough,
But when you are already there then it makes you smile.
So what are the new year resolutions have you got in mind?
What are the paths in life you think you would be taking next year.
I guess I am going to get a bit deeper into myself,
And see where I am after touching the base into a lot of things this year.
Next year I would like to master few skills and forget some other things,
Next year I want to mark as another remarkable year of my life.
Like this year I want to keep going and touch the sky,
Like this year I want to touch few lives and become a part of many other lives.
What I would love to do is know more about myself,
To be able to tell where I am in this journey of my life.
I would like to be able to love myself even more,
And may be fall in love once again for rest of my life.
Its future so I don’t really want to think about it too much,
But a slight plan would help to keep the light of hope burning.
I would love to welcome another year into my life to give me the best present of all time,
To cherish what I have and the people I have met around the world.
To all the resolutions we have in mind for coming year 2014,
To all the plans we have made for the next amazing year.
To all my friends here to enjoy each and every moment with their loved once,
To all those unspoken feelings to unravel may be in another year.
It was a nice experience I must say to see this man made beach in Brisbane. Loved the location right next to the Brisbane river in the centre of tge city. And this closes item 37th on my bucket list as well.
Here is a link for my bucket list if you haven’t read it yet.
A little bit different and another post about the fears I have in my life with a reflection of other reader’s experiences along with it.
Its this strange emotion that is making me feel the burn deep inside,
Its this feeling that something just died in me and I can feel it straight away,
Its the loss that I am mourning in my heart and in my body I can feel it,
Its this feeling of trust that I am loosing and I am feeling so fragile this way.
I was happy once again and I was smiling once more,
I was talking to people once again and it seemed like fun once more.
But then he walked all over me or did I let him I should rather say,
He broke my trust again by making me feel good first and then leaving me like a forgotton path.
It hurts like hell to feel like nothing and to have no identity left,
Its my heart or my ego I can’t differentiate anymore.
But I am sure it would pass as it always does usually,
I am sure it would not hurt and my heart would heal again.
But I am not sure why people do this to gain some momentarily joy,
That destruct others and destroy the peace of mind for so long.
I am not sure why do we give in for that smile on our face,
And buy the tears for the days to come.
But being human is to make mistake,
Being human is to fall in love and see if that’s the right person again,
Being human makes you trust people no matter what,
Being human you have hope for the humanity to come.
It might break my dream again and again,
But I know the day would come and restore my faith again.
I am sure there is someone out there who would make me feel,
That I was never wrong to trust some one from the deep of my heart again.
To all human beings today who are part of this world,
To all humans who make mistake and then try to learn from it,
To all my brothers and sisters who are falling in love again,
To all my fellow beings who are willing to give it all for the sake of human love.
Whiteheaven is one of the whitest beach in the world. So if you are in Sydney then try to go to Whitsundays and from there you can sail to Whiteheaven, Hamilton and many beautiful islands. The closest mainland area is Airle Beach and you can get there from Sydney in 1 hour by flight. Or you can choose to fly to Mackay which is bit cheaper and take greyhound bus to Airle Beach. The bus only runs once in a day each way so plan accordingly. It was a hectic trip due to less number of days but it was an amazing experience. I would share some more tips and details of my trip in the next post. And more pics from the Daydream island where I spend half of my day eating good lunch n relaxing near the pool bar so stay tuned
Key is to appreciate what is around,
Smile at the things that are given to you.
Its what you give would come back to you,
So smile at universe and it would smile back to you.
I am happy that I am alive,
I know you have heard this before many times,
And are not interested in listening to these words again,
I know you know all this but you want to know how to change.
Change comes within no matter how many layers you wear,
Its powerful and can move mountains if required.
Change require the willingness and the ability to die for the cause,
Change doesn’t come from outside and it is you who has to become it.
Change is what you become when you go through it,
It lives in you, it breathes in you and gives you the power to rise above.
It is one word that can make a difference worthwhile in your life,
It is something that would give you a chance to become who you want to become.
So rise from you chair, table, ground wherever you are right now,
Rise above those notions that make you feel you can’t do something in life.
Give yourself a big hug and tell yourself that you are with yourself no matter what,
And then close your eyes to see the best place you have ever seen in your life.
It would take a moment to realize how lucky you are if you can do this,
You are able to take care of yourself and you are able to think.
You don’t need much as you never have to rule the world after all,
If you think so then that’s a myth that you need to remove now.
All you need to do is rule yourself and in other words know yourself and live with yourself,
You forgot yourself the moment you came to this world.
You forgot who you were when you hadn’t seen the world,
You forgot you were there for yourself and with yourself for nine months and many before in this universe.
So retreat to that stage again and start living with yourself once again,
It would give you all the answers you need,
I am on my way and here is the path I can tell you I am following,
Not sure what I would become once I get to that so called destination of mine.
But that’s the reason I can tell you now where I am going,
Just in case I find out another destination from there.
The best thing you can do is to be with yourself and love yourself,
As no one in the world would appreciate it more you yourself and then love is all you would spread.
It was a nice experience I must say to listen to Ricky last night, live in Sydney during his gig. Loved the energy level of people n the whole atmosphere. Here are some snaps from my evening. And this closes item 5 on my bucket list as well. I might be able to upload some videos soon as well.
Here is a link for my bucket list if you haven’t read it yet.
[Note: This is dedicated to all my friend in this blogging world for being there for me in every phase of my life and sharing their life with me]
You my friend saved my soul,
When it was hot as hell and nothing was well.
I was feeling the burning hole in my heart,
You my friend hold me tight and made me strong.
You my friend saved my soul,
When the time was tough you were always by my side.
When the going gets worse you made me feel better,
You my friend are an angel from the heaven.
You made me feel tears in my eyes,
With the act of kindness all the time.
You made me feel better at every moment of my life,
And it was you who made me alive when I couldn’t live this life.
You supported me when the world wasn’t there for me,
You my friend were always there no matter what.
It is your love that gives me strength,
It is your love that made me keep going no matter what.
I promise to stand tall irrespective of the high waves of emotions inside,
I promise to live through all the experiences and become a better human being.
I promise that I would work on myself day and night,
I promise I would be better every moment and with ever sight.
You are an inspiration with all your words you send me,
You are a person I look up to with all your kindness and beauty.
You my friend did wonders in my life with your presence,
You my friend didn’t just save my soul but it’s only beauty.
Thank you, thank you, I thank you with all my heart,
I am grateful to you and your kindness in my life.
I wish to be on your side the way you are always there,
I wish you a beautiful life the way you have made mine.
I feel as if I am in a whirlpool these days,
Sometimes I feel I am falling into the dark.
Nothing is clear and I feel like a fool,
I was happy for sometime but that was just the start.
I feel the pain deep in my heart,
For all the hurts I had in past.
These dark feelings are dragging me down,
To the path of deep disappointment, at last.
I have hope to come out of this soon,
As it’s flooding out my desire to live.
I am sitting here and looking at the sky,
Expecting to feel calm and peace inside.
Those beautiful days with a smile on my face,
Why can’t just they last forever,
Why do we have to go through this never ending chase,
But my heart knows that one day it will definitely get better.
[Note: This poem was writen few months ago when I was a bit sad. I would like to share it with you now.]
Hello My Lovely Fellow Bloggers,
A smile and hug from Sydney. I had an amazing weekend this time like many others and I am back to share some stories and experience with you including my bucketlist adventure. Here is a link for my bucket list if you haven’t read it yet.
This time I had a wonderful time in a city called Armidale, located in the northern tableland in New South Wales, Australia. It has population of around 25,000 people and is known as one of the higest city in Australia at 1,110 meter above sea level. It is a beautiful area covered by world heritage national parks and it has also got an airport at 1,084 metres (3,556 ft), the highest licensed airport in New South Wales. It is 5 hours 30 minutes drive from Sydney, but I don’t drive so I caught the Greyhound bus in the evening from Central, Sydney to get here. It is a bit cold in Armidale due to it’s high location hence it is advisable to carry few warm clothes usually.
I think this is one of the most relaxed and happy weekend I had for quiet a while. And as I look back, I feel that the time I had spent here in this little town was blissful. Why do I feel blissful? A number of things happened on my trip to Armidale this weekend and I was content and happy after such a wonderful weekend with few hiccups. I left Sydney around 5:30 PM on Friday evening when everyone was getting in the party mood in the city. People were leaving work on time or even early to start feeling Friday fever. I was in the bus waiting to get out of the city and get a snooze before I arrive in Armidale at 2:30 AM in the morning. It was a nice bus ride where I met this French couple who were spending their honeymoon travelling around the world for 6 months. What an awesome way to celebrate I must say. I love meeting people from different culture as you can see and we instantly hit it off and shared a lot of experiences from past travelling. I was lucky to get the next seat free in the bus as it was enough for me to curl up and get some sleep on my way to Armidale. As this was the first time I was going there so I checked quiet a few times with the driver about where we were and that made him wonder why I might be going to this little town where he himself hadn’t been for ages. Anyways finally I was there. The moment I left the bus a wave of cold air took me by surprise. It was around -2.0 C which I was not quiet prepared to be honest and the warm clothes I was carrying were mainly for the bus in case the AC was too low which sometimes is the case when you take a bus. But I was very glad that I did have few warm clothes and I tried to wear all of them to make myself more comfortable in this cold night.
I met some locals and made some really good friends I must say. It was just such a nice trip if I look back. I went for a walk/run to enjoy the atmosphere and that took me to the University of New England in Armidale, where there was some function taking place. Then I also visited the city and the Dangar waterfall that is 20 minutes drive from Armidale, a very serene place. There are few other nice places to visit that I didn’t get a chance to go but worth seeing if you have few days in Armidale:
• Oxley Wild RIvers Nationalpark
• Zoology Museum
• Museum of Antiquities
• New England Regional Art Museum
• Hillgrove Museum
• Cathedral Rock National Park
• Dangars Lagoon and Racecourse Lagoon
• Deeargee Woolshed
• Eastview Estate Winery
• Geraldine 4WD Recreation Park
• Mount Mutton Walking Trail
• Mount Yarrowyck Nature Reserve
• Thunderbolts Rock
• Uralla Heritage Walk
• Wollomombi Falls – This is one of the highest fall in Australia. Wollomombi Falls are located less than one kilometre south of the village of Wollomombi and approximately two and a half kilometres by road. The access turn off is one and a half kilometres from Wollomombi on the Waterfall Way towards Armidale.
Love is one of those reasons I think I live,
What is there without love for anything or anyone.
I don’t see a purpose of my life if I don’t accept love,
I don’t see a reason to wake up if I don’t give love.
You eat because you love food and you cook for the same reason,
You meet friends because you love them, and you like to have fun for this very reason.
You take care of yourself because you love yourself,
And you hate being distressed as you feel like running out of love.
It is the only true feeling you can feel as everything else is the different shades of it,
Hate is the total devoid of the feeling of love in yourself,
Sadness spreads over when you are not able to feel love anymore,
Similarly joy is another form of love and compassion is the very source of pure love.
How do you think the world would survive if we didn’t have any love,
The creativity would die soon as there would be no need of beauty around.
The friendliness would not be the common norm anymore,
As the lack of love would turn us into a machine.
So my friend always remember the reason you are here for – to feel love,
To give love and to live it each and every day in your beautiful life.
A day without love is the day that you forgot to live in the real world,
A day without love makes me feel that I am not alive anymore.
Feel love as love is in the air you breathe,
Feel love as love is in the eyes of those stranger you see.
Feel love as love is the essence of us as human beings,
Feel love as love is the only feeling worth living this life my friend.
Very often I get this question – What is this spice useful for? Being Indian we do use a lot of different kind of spices for taste and health benifits but most of the times I used to remember the taste and not the other reasons I would use them. Hence I have come up with a list of spices and their benifits so that if you like then you can try them and change the quality and taste of the food.
Enjoy a spicy day my friends
|Black pepper||Improve Digestion and Promote Intestinal Health|
|Basil||DNA Protection Plus Anti-Bacterial Properties|
|Tumeric||It helps deal with skin problems. Turmeric powder can be used for healing cuts and wounds. It also makes coping with diabetes easier.|
|Chile Pepper||Fight Inflammation, Natural Pain Relief, Cardiovascular Benefits, Clear Congestion, Boost Immunity, Help Stop the Spread of Prostate Cancer, Prevent Stomach Ulcers, Lose Weight, Lower Risk of Type 2 Diabetes|
|Cayenne Pepper||Fight Inflammation, Natural Pain Relief, Cardiovascular Benefits, Clear Congestion, Boost Immunity, Help Stop the Spread of Prostate Cancer, Prevent Stomach Ulcers, Lose Weight, Lower Risk of Type 2 Diabetes|
|Asafoetida (Hing)||Remedy for whooping cough and stomach ache caused due to gas.|
|Bay leaf (Tez Patta)||Bay leaf oil possesses antifungal and anti bacterial|
|Cardamom (Elaichi)||Helps to control bad breath and digestive disorder. A whole cardamom chewed is good for coping with diabetes.|
|Chilli (Lal Mirch)||The antioxidants present in chilli help to cope with cholesterol. It also helps burning calories|
|Cinnamon (Dalchini)||It supports natural production of insulin and reduces blood cholesterol, the highest anti-oxidant strength of all the food sources in nature|
|Clove (Laung)||Clove oil is beneficial for coping with tooth ache and sore gums. It is also beneficial remedy for chest pains, fever, digestive problems, cough and cold.|
|Coriander (Dhaniya)||It can be used externally on aching joints and rheumatism. It is also good for coping with soar throat, allergies, digestion problems, hay fever etc|
|Cumin (Zeera)||It is a good source or iron and keeps immune system healthy. Water boiled with cumin seeds is good for coping with dysentery.|
|Curry leaves(Curry Patta)||These leaves are beneficial for reducing blood sugar. Each part of the plant provides some benefit or the other. The dried leaves are extensively used in herbal medicines.|
|Fenugreek (Methi)||Fenugreek seed tea or sweet fudge is good for increasing breast milk. It also helpful for treating diabetes and lowering cholesterol|
|Garlic (Lassan)||It is useful for coping with cough and cold. It also has antibiotic properties.|
|Ginger (Adrak)||Helps to avoid digestive problems. It is beneficial for coping with cough and cold.|
|Mustard (Rye)||Mustard oil is good for body massage and even for getting good hair. It consists of omega-3 fatty acids. It is an excellent source of iron, zinc, manganese, calcium, protein etc.|
|Nutmeg (Jaiphal)||It is beneficial for the treatments of asthma, heart disorder and bad breath.|
|Pepper (Kaali Mirch)||It helps coping with cold, cough, infections etc. It helps to deal with muscle pains and digestive problems|
|Saffron (Zaffran/Kesar)||It helps to cope with skin diseases. It is a good remedy for cough, cold and asthma.|
|Star anise (Chakra Phool)||Star anise oil is beneficial for rheumatism. It is helpful for digestion and avoiding bad breath|
|Nutmeg||anti-oxidant, disease preventing, and health promoting properties, vital B-complex vitamins, including vitamin C, folic acid, riboflavin, niacin, vitamin A and many flavonoid anti-oxidants like beta-carotene and cryptoxanthin|
|Mustard seeds||rich in phyto-nutrients, minerals, vitamins and anti-oxidants, B-complex vitamins, niacin (vitamin B-3), vitamin E, gamma tocopherol, minerals. Calcium, manganese, copper, iron, selenium and zinc|
Hmmm…long pause….knock knock….Whose there?
This is the feeling of adrenalin rush called extreme adventure,
Come in, what do you want? I asked.
‘I heard that you are looking for me in your free time’ – Adventure.
Yes, I am but I am not sure if I can do it on my own,
It can be boring to do stuff and feel the rush when no one to share.
Are you scared? Asked the feeling of adventure that just arrived,
Yes I am. Then close your eyes take a deep breath and scream from the top of your lunges.
I did that and felt a surge of new feelings arrived and a smile touching my lips,
Ok you are in then and we can do heaps of adventure whenever and wherever, I replied.
We need to invite feeling of fear to make sure you do take calculated risk when you are with me,
Why is that? I am an adult and I can do it on my own but if you say so then the more the merrier.
Knock knock, who is there? This is fear as I heard you were looking for me.
Yes come in, adventure and me are just getting to know each other.
I would love to join you guys but wisdom is wondering around and looking for a bright spirit to talk to,
Alright I would make sure we have wisdom with us too and then we can be a team.
Yay, shouted adventure, Now I can be playful and not worry about your safety as wisdom is good in that department,
Alright don’t be so excited we haven’t even invited courage yet as fear can be dominating otherwise, wisdom said.
Here comes the courage and fear is not so comfortable with this new guest around,
But now here we go as a team to make sure the time is good and we have lots of fun with all the new friends.
What is it about love that is so addictive that you once taste it you want it more,
The more you get the more you need and one day you can’t live without it.
What was my life before this as I don’t remember what it was like,
It was simple and it was easy and I could just live with myself.
Now every day a thought passes at least once reminding me of the gap I have in my heart,
It makes me think if I have forgotten how it feel when you love some one so much.
It is that amazing feeling that sweeps you off your feet and makes you smile all day,
Nothing special needs to happen but falling in love makes it magical all around.
Love is one of those feeling that I miss at times the most,
I am not sure why do I think about love so much, I definitely have no clue.
My life is perfect but I miss loving somebody to the core of my heart,
But I know when the time is right, I would find the one worthy of all this love.
The tears streaming down my cheeks and the smile on my lips,
All is worth if you can feel that deep feeling of true love into yourself.
In today’s world we have lost the true feeling of love and replaced it with lust,
Its the pity that sometimes we hardly can ever know what true love is in ourselves.
This is to all those people who ever felt the true love in their heart,
This is for all those beautiful souls who yearn to feel it deep in their heart.
A very sweet feeling for those who haven’t discovered it yet,
A dream for those who have lived their life in this world of love from the very start.
Hello My Lovely Fellow Bloggers,
A big hug to all from me. I had an amazing weekend this time like many others I have had since I have started this bucket-list for this year. And I am back to share some more adventure with you. Here is a link for my bucket list if you haven’t had a look yet.
You must be wondering what did I do this item, which item did I cross off from my big list. So here you go.
Item Number #35 – Jetpack Adventure (Link to the website in Australia – http://www.jetpackadventures.com.au/)
It was such a lovely day even though I was a little bit tired after my trip to Armidale (a historical little city in Australia). But I was all set to fly over the water today. Yes you are right fly like a super woman. I was thrilled to be able to complete all my fantasies since I was a child and it was going to be true today. Yaaay….so here I was sitting near the lake and getting ready for the ride. I had watched a different version of this sport on TV (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHL16av4C9k) few months ago and since then I was imagining how amazing it would be if I could ever do it. Video of my adventure would be sent to me in a week’s time hence I would post it then and till then here are some pics for you guys.
I was a bit nervous when Jess, from JetPack Adventure team, told me that I need to learn to flip as I would usually fall on the water face down. It wasn’t very good to know that I would be trying to flip when I had no mask on with the possibility to breathe underwater. But I was so thankful for this life saving technique as on my first go I was flipping quiet a few times after falling straight into the water from almost 10 feet high. Anyways I got all dressed up… in the wetsuit of course and a life jacket just in case. Also as there were no boots available for my size so I had to make sure I walk to the deeper end of the lake a bit carefully as it can be a bit rough with the small rocks around. And then Simon, from the Jetpack Adventure, told me the various techniques to control the direction I would be flying today. Everyone in the team was so supportive and funny that even falling in the water and crashing on my first go didn’t look very bad really.
Yes, I crashed badly after lifting from the water on my first go. A though crossed my mind – ‘it ain’t looking good why the hell you have to do this.’ But then another thought said – ‘ You are not a quitter and if others can do it then so can you’. There comes the power of willingness and I was ready to give it another go. This time again I crashed back into the water. Greg was on the jetski and was worried and asked Simon not to worry about the video and other things but help me to lift from the water first. I was a bit more nervous now as I thought it was simple but no every little movement of my body was putting me out of balance really and then I would crash into the water again. But then it happened, I lifted from the water successfully on my third go and I flew for some time. Then again as the controls were new to me so I fell back into the water i the middle of the lake. Greg was very kind and patient with me and I can’t believe how much confidence boost he gave me really. Towards the end of my introductory flight I was a bit better I would say and very tired as well. I must have drunk a litre of water that time. Then I had a break for a while before going for my next flight.
I flew nicely on my second flight. It was so much better the next time and I was squealing with joy and excitement in the sky. I even tried to fly with my hands wide open and twisting and turning my body weight for a while as suggested by Simon. Then it got even better on my third and last flight and this time Greg even said that I am flying like a professional. Of course he was being very nice to me but I did fly with not many hiccups this time and I was smooth with control and mainly I was going where I wanted this time and not being dragged from the power of the jetpack this time. I felt amazing and I even glided in the air and above the water like some super hero. It was one of the best experience so far I had I felt. The power to be able to fly and control your movement with your own will. And Greg gave some extra boost for my flights to make sure I can have as much fun as I wanted. It was such a wonderful day that made me want it even more. I might go back there some day in future as summer is coming and these kind of sports are always welcome to enjoy the water as well as the thrill involved with them. Next time I might even go for a flyboard (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHL16av4C9k) I guess Also the good news is that even kids can do it as Tandem flight (strapped with the professionals).
So till my next adventure stay tuned with my blog and a lot more to come till the year-end when I would be flying to Los Angles and Miami for an amazing new year.
Now it’s gone because of the way he looked at me today,
I couldn’t understand the reason of his coldness.
What did I do wrong? I didn’t know what to do to rectify any of my action,
That’s what happen when you like someone but haven’t admit to it yet.c
But before today I didn’t know that I liked him so much,
And I have unwillingly given him the power to hurt me as much.
I didn’t know that I have been thinking about him so much,
And I have been subconsciously given him some space in my heart as such.
Sometimes I am accepting and adapting this new feeling of hurt,
Then at times I am feeling sad and want to remember happy feelings for a while.
It hurts and it’s bad, nothing that I can do to make it better,
I have loved him just by looking at him and over the very few conversations we ever had.
I feel funny because I don’t even know his name,
All I know is that he is a nice guy who talked to me nicely.
I didn’t believe in love at first sight before,
But this is not exactly at first sight as I have been bumping into him for so many times.
But anyways I hope I will get over this childish crush of mine,
Life moves on and I don’t regret to feel a bit of love in life again.
I am grateful to still have a heart and to be able to feel love and hurt,
It’s better than turning into a cold stone and never be able to love again.
[Note: The poem is a way to express the emotions for a poet and my work here can include the imaginary characters and emotions created by mere flight of imagination. Hence request you to look into this as a creative work and not a personal diary when it comes to poems.]
Aimless life with nowhere to go,
But I am on the road to go everywhere.
It doesn’t really matter to me where I end up,
As long as I cover some distance on the way to somewhere.
A traveller is the one who travels with no destination in mind,
The direction leads you everywhere and you think of nowhere.
It is the journey that makes it worthwhile,
And not the specific place that you think of going.
You sometime might feel your soul connected to a places,
Where you never thought of making your home before.
Its the feeling of love that makes you overwhelm,
And its the feeling of new life that makes it look like never before.
So what’s my aim of life?
Good question is all I can say as I have no aim.
As far as I know it’s just a game,
That I want to play and live in the moment without any aim.
Why do we have to have an aim? - to make sure we are focused to achieve the goal right,
But in life if we focus on things too much then we might miss things that are around us.
So to make sure that I make the most of what is given to us,
I choose not to have any aim and accept and enjoy whatever comes along.
Hello My Lovely Bloggers,
A big hug to all from me. I had an amazing few month since I have started this bucket-list for this year. And I am back to share some more adventure with you. You know I have 50 items of all sorts of things on my bucket list for 2013. Here is also a link for the same if you haven’t had a look.
You must be wondering what did I do this item, which item did I cross off from my big list. So here you go.
Item Number #43 – Complete Advanced Scuba diving course
It was not until I was reading my own bucket list, I had time to think about diving for a while. Then I saw this item on my list – Advanced open water course in diving. Suddenly I realised it’s time to learn some thing more in diving and get back to water after a while. It was such a nice feeling to think about the course and it made it easier to get up early in the morning on the weekend to get to Manly which is a train and a ferry away (almost 1.5 hours) from me. I was there all excited except one fact in my mind. I had recently watched the movie – Open Water, where this couple was left in the ocean after diving by mistake and that actually made me a bit sceptical about this sport now. So I asked the instructor in the diving company to make sure that he remembers to bring me back. Everyone laughed at first but then I did explain the reason behind my worry. I don’t mind dying one day but if I do die for some stupid reason then it won’t be fun really and there is so much to see before getting eaten alive by sharks or die due to cold in water really.
So here I was back into the ocean and on our first dive. It was so bumpy on the way as the weather was not in our favour. But somehow the skipper anchored at one place and then we jumped into the water all geared up and after doing the buddy check (the safety check that one does on their buddy in diving as people are paired up generally in diving). We started to decent when the skipper called the instructor and asked to get back the boat as the anchor was being dragged due to the current and it didn’t look like a safe sign. So we came back to the boat and after a while we found another place to do out first dive. I had trouble equalizing today as my ears were blocked. A girl had already dropped out of the course after the first rough encounter with the waves so I was a bit nervous myself. But I couldn’t just give up, specially after 18 dives I had done so far. I was determined to get to the bottom and so I did. It was painful for a while as I felt as if my head would burst . But finally I got better and did the first dive properly. After the first dive we had time for snacks and I have been eating so much lately that it became my favourite time during the dives when we were served hot pies and other Thai snacks. I loved it even though I was a bit suspicious about being too full just before the second dive. But anyways just like the first dive again it was a bit hard today to equalize but fortunately I was able to complete this dive too. Now it was time to get back to the store and go for the night dive. I had never done three dives, all in one day so I was a bit tired but enthusiastic at the same time. And this time I had less weight on me due to the different sizes of weight belts in the store as compared to the boat, hence no matter what I did it was just hard to stay in the bottom and I would just come back to surface all the time. Yes, it’s hard for me to sink…lol. Then the instructor put some more weight in my pocket and then I was able to enjoy rest of my dive with others.
Next day we had to go a bit late for rest of the two dives that included the deep dive. Even though I was on time for the ferry but there were so many people in Sydney harbour today to go to Manly that the ferry was full twice and my heart was almost sinking thinking how am I going to get there now. Fortunately we were able to board the next boat and then I realized the bay I was aiming to reach was no near Manly. I called the store and asked the people there to wait for me so that I can join the group from the store. I took off my footwear and started running barefoot. It was funny as I was the only girl in a nice dress but running barefoot. People kept staring at me but now more important was to get to the store before the group leaves me behind. I got there all huffing and puffing and the instructor even made a joke out of it. But I was so happy as if I had done the course already. And there we go for our next two dives. It was nice and calm water today so not much trouble finding a nice spot in the blue fish point. Even better that I did not have trouble equalizing today. Hence I did descent slowly but effectively today. Then I realized my cylinder was coming off. Wow that was a news now as I didn’t know whether to stop descending or go to the surface but then my instructor asked me to keep going and I felt that he was making sure that my cylinder is still attached to my jacket a little. Then on the bottom (20 meter), he asked me to sit so that he can fix it. So I followed his instruction and he did fixed it. Man that was a bit scary initially as it would have been an emergency ascent in case the cylinder would have come off anyhow.
We all successfully completed both the dives with some snacks. It was a wonderful feeling while coming back thinking about the two days we spent training ourselves and learning about various technical stuff that would be useful in future. Thank you all for your time to read about my weekend and now I have ticked off another item from my list. Hurrah.
What does it really mean when you ask some one – Are you alright?
Does it matter what answer they would give to this question?
Would it make a difference for you as to what does the other person has to say to this question?
Or is it just a convention that you feel bound to follow.
I have seen people asking – How are you? while walking down the street,
And the moment you answer you realize they are gone already.
We have reduced the importance of this question by repeating it many times a day,
We have almost diminish the value of the answer by neglecting it this way.
How does it even matter if you don’t bother to listen to the answer?
And also even if you wait and listen, are you going to give few moments to make some one feel better.
Just in case they are not feeling well,
Or in case their answer is not what you expect.
Why do we just say things at times we don’t really mean,
It’s like we are some garbage producing machine with our mouth.
We hardly think what we are talking and sometimes we just do it for no reason,
So many times we talk thing that make no sense.
And I think many times I do fall in this bucket myself,
So what I am trying to say here is do you think it’s time for a small change.
It is time to ask someone with empathy if they are ok or not,
With keeping the fact in mind that whether we ourselves are ready to deal with the answer or not.
Because if we are not ready for the answer then it’s sometimes better not to even ask such questions,
As you might stir something in others they might not like.
If you are not even interested in listening to what they have got to say,
Sometimes it’s better to realize the depth of the questions we ask and whether we are ready or not.
Love is something I don’t want to discard from life,
Life being single has been awesome so far.
I have friends, I have a job and I have a dream,
So far things look perfect if only we realize love is not just about having a partner.
It’s about feeling complete with your surroundings,
It’s about feeling connect to things around you.
It’s more than just being someone’s wife or husband,
It’s about having compassion for others around you.
Life is more than just the one kind of love,
As we define and restrict love to be for our family or friends.
Love shines through our eyes when you look at the bright day and smile,
Love is in you when you look at a stranger and re-connect yourself.
Love is in the air when you hear a lovely song and feel like dancing,
Love becomes you when you don’t know the reason of the smile that spread through your lips.
It is very simple and easy to live as its natural to you,
As human being you are bound to love and connect and its only hard when you forget this very truth.
So my friend think about one simple thing that you have ever loved in your life and smile,
Think of the very person who is dear to you and who made you smile.
The moment you feel it your day will get brighter and sun will shine in your heart,
The life would look more beautiful and the stars will lead you to a fresh start.
Life is funny, I thought when the instructor was pumping the class,
And he said that your favourite move is coming up – ‘go super slow with the bar’,
If you can’t relate to it then may be you have yet not attended the group classes in gym,
Where the instructors push you hard and make funny comments when you are sweating and swearing.
I laugh at things easily enough these days I feel,
As there is nothing to hold back all you need is a lighter head.
Seriousness causes a lot of headache so I try to hide from it whenever possible,
And every now and then I just laugh at the different things in life.
Its easy believe me as when you look at people and how serious they are,
Either on a train or on a playground you can see those serious faces everywhere.
I say stop being so serious and stop taking life so seriously,
Life is a game that you can never come out alive so what is the deal with being so serious all the time.
No matter whether you loose or win you are going to be dead anyways,
So why not play it in the best way possible and have a smile everyday instead of seriousness.
When I get late for somewhere unintentionally then I used to run but now I stop and then,
I think that I am not going to be hanged to death if I am late this one day so take it easy.
We need to take things lightly so bad in today’s world where people take things way too seriously,
Where there is way too seriousness around the world and people have forgotten to even smile.
Life is precious and present is full of beautiful moments to capture,
So stop and take a moment to appreciate and observe your surroundings.
Feel and breathe the air in the morning and soak in the sun some time in the afternoon,
All you are running for is to save time but in the rush all you are loosing is again time.
So what’s the hurry when you are not going to get the time you spent running back in life,
Rather spend it well now when you can and don’t regret later in this life.
Greetings from a warm but windy day at my end. Today when I went out then I realized that its a nice and sunny day but you better tuck your clothes in and tie your hair as the wind is going to blow everything away a bit harder this afternoon. But no matter what, summer gives me such joy. I feel like I can open up a little more and no need to curl into myself and be scared of cold. Although it is a very personal choice but I prefer summer most of the times.
So a thought crossed my mind today as I am trying to move towards a heatlhy mind and body these days. Atleast I am trying And being a personal trainer I guess I have abused my capabitlities enough by eating much sugar and other fatty stuff. But summer is around the corner so I better get fitter to take a plunge into the beach every now and then. Any ways so what I was thinking is it might be a time when we confess what are the things we do but we want to either get rid of them or atleast don’t want to do in our life.
Here is my list and I am looking forward to hear from you my friend to make sure we are aware of what are the things that make us feel bad or uncomfortable.
- Loosing anything can make you feel frustated – (example: I recently lost my umbrella, water bottle and a t-shirt, all in one day even though I never loose a thing) – This incidence made me so cynical for a while that I would not trust myself for anything and do a double or triple check for my stuff all the time. But then it was just a simple fact that I had a long and busy day that day and I just wasn’t present hence all I need to do is accept that I can be forgetful and loosing something is ok and its already past. So use of beating yourself for that. I know I might sound odd here but as I never loose stuff so even this simple thing threw me out of order for sometime.
- I can’t keep the sweet things for long at home - I am such a sweet tooth that I avoid buying sweets rather than trying unsuccessfully to keep some for long time at home. I have eaten enormous amount of sweets all in one day many times before.
- I don’t like confronting people in case of any misunderstanding - I tend to avoid close friends or family in case I feel hurt or upset by them. Even though I come across as an extrovert but its very easy for me to lock myself in my room to avoid any encounter with others at times.
- I become even more serious around people I like - Specially with any guy I like I pretend to be super serious which my flatmate can easily spot now. Even when we are laughing on our way and instantly if I like someone then I go all serious with no smile on face at all. And then she would say oh looks like you liked him. And then what damage is already done as I don’t know how to smile at anyone I instantly like. Funny huh.
- I find it boring to spend time on make up even though I know it would make a lot of difference - I always plan to change this and try to look pretty every morning but then next thing I know I am putting my sports shoes on with my backpack. And there you go – forget about the barbie doll, its a rough and tough girl leaving the house.
- I don’t like cooking for myself usually – Although I am trying to cook healthy more and more now so many be this habit might change soon.
- I am scared of riding a bi-cycle in Sydney as I think I might get killed in the road with no safety – Even though I used to roam in my bike all the time, its odd that I find it so scary now. I might get out there and do it one day.
- I find it hard to stay silent with a friend - I feel awkward not to talk when around a person I know well. I find the silence very difficult to maintain and get all sorts of odd things popping up in my mind – example: what that person might think if I don’t talk. I have to build a relationship with silence I think as when ever I am not talking then I am thinking otherwise.
- I spend more money then spending more time to save money at times – I never use credit card as I am usually scared of their safety. Even though this can save me so much money.
some of these can find obvious or very common but I guess at the moment these are the things I could think of. But I would add if I remember some more. So what is your confession for the day?
- Can never be happy
- Complain a lot about something or the other
- In-flexible with environment
- Extremely moody
- Fearful and nervous about everything and anything and scream all the time
- Never leave work in office but rather live with it all the time
- Party animals and can’t stop drinking
- Won’t give a damn to the rules of any new place and would love to live according to what they think is right
- No risk-takers – Everything is too dear to risk for them in life
- Not ready to learn anything new at any time
A question that I have been looking an answer for since I was very young,
Yes it might feel odd but may be I was more spiritual when I was growing up than I am now.
I tried to ask people, my teachers and any familiar person who might know the answer,
But no one told me who I was or what was my purpose in this world.
I felt like a person with no mission and I felt lost,
I felt like born with no reason to fulfil and no one to serve.
God is the name they gave to ask these questions from,
And I build a relationship with an invisible entity in my life then.
I thought whatever I need to know God would tell me,
I worshipped God and ask him day and night with only silence in return.
It was awkward to sit still for hours in order to get an answer from God,
But nothing happened and I never got the right answer for my very question.
Then I thought may be I am looking at the wrong place,
I started reading books and started thinking about the various things said in it.
They talked about nothing being real and every thing being a myth,
Being a science student it was not easily digestible for me for sure.
So I decided to leave this quest for a while till I was ready,
As sometimes the answers are in front of you but you are just not ready.
It was the time when my mind could only read and feel the obvious,
But these are the questions you can only realize when you look beyond obvious.
Now you must be thinking if I have got the answer yet,
No, not yet but I think I am getting prepared well for the answers.
And once I get the answer to it I would love to share,
Meanwhile if any one has any clue to it then you are more than welcome.
I know it sounds almost impossible to be happy when you love travelling and now it is time to go back to your old life with a job and regular day to day life. I have felt this many times and I am sure you have too. But this time when I came back and I knew I can not travel international for rest of the year as I just got a new job and to get my citizenship in this country I might have to be here at least 1.5 years then I wasn’t happy thinking about it. But then as a matter of fact you don’t stop living with so many things in your mind and you have to find a way out. Here are some tips that I would like to share with you that I am using in my day to day life to make my life with not enough travel happier and more content.
- It’s never over - You should never think its over as travelling can never finish when you love travelling. Hence it is just a refreshing break from the long or short term travel and time to reflect back with awesome memories till you go back again to some more awesome places.
- Don’t stop completely - You should still plan some short term or weekend gateway away as that keep the momentum and its always good to get away for a change. That is the very reason you started travelling and even you go to the places you have been before those places would be different for you this time with a completely new perspective.
- Do something you really love - Sometimes travelling restricts us from doing many things that require to stay at one place or more money when we are not earning. For example: you always wanted to learn dancing or martial arts. This is the time to do it. You love doing these things then do it. No matter whether travelling or dancing makes you happy, doing something you love will make your life so much more happier.
- Be grateful - Very important rule in life – if you want to be happy then be grateful for what you have and never take any thing for granted. And when I say any thing that means literally anything as many people out there don’t have it and they would be very fortunate to be able to have your life.
- Make new friends - This you can do everywhere even though when you are travelling you feel more confident meeting new people. But try meeting new people in your own city/town this time as it would make such a big difference.
- Make the world travel to you – Invite people to visit you. What if you can’t travel but the world can travel to you. Couch surfing is a great way to meet people from around the world. Or you can even join meet-up groups (http://www.meetup.com/) for different interests or age groups.
- Stop comparing - You are not missing out while others are travelling as you are just taking a break and when others would be back then you would be out on the road. A lot of times we are not unhappy due to our own issues but rather unhappy due to others happiness or activities. Stop comparing as who else is doing what as that will reduce life time of your miseries to be honest. I know its hard but if you think about you have something else which others might not have and you are learning something else in the course of life.
- Stop being lazy – Now that you are home you don’t get up early anymore even on the weekends as you think travelling was the time you had something to do but now its boring life again. I have started doing tours or things I wasn’t able to do while travelling like – advanced scuba dive course, salsa classes. This gives me a reason to wake up early and go. I wasn’t going to gym for a long time and I find it good to join back and get on the fitness track again before I hit the road again.
- Indulge yourself into food – You can always try different cuisines even in your home country. Or at least you can try cooking for a change if you like. I put this thing in my bucket list - try 10 different new cuisines and guess what, I got introduced to some amazing flavours that I never knew exists before.
- Friends gathering – You miss to meet friends when you are away and even when I am travelling more domestic on weekends I miss my friends so I make a point to meet each one of them when I am back. That way I am in touch with them and its always something happening to keep me busy.
- Learn something new - You can always learn something new. Either it’s a new language or new skill. You would have more money and time to dedicate yourself to learn these things when you are back and before you go on travelling again. It will even enrich your experience when you travel next with all these new learning’s as well.
- Plan - You can always plan where and how you want to travel in new future. One of the best thing about travelling is to look forward to travel and you can always maintain it with the plans and discussion around your travelling. I am excited even after just having thought of going to South America next year with my friends. Its always gives you a reason to smile and something to look forward to.
Looking into my eyes,
Trying to find himself in them.
A little boy I met today,
Was a little bit lost in them.
I came back home and sat for a while,
But those innocent eyes were still with me.
I could still feel the intensity of that look,
I could still feel the connection with them in me.
It was as if I never left him since I met him,
What was about him that made me feel so restless.
What was about his gaze that made me completely lost,
Why is it being so difficult to forget that moment that touched my soul.
May be it was the moment I looked at his eyes and saw myself somewhere in them,
Or may be it was his way of looking at me that I have never felt before.
May be it was the simple fact that he was keen to know this other person in front of him,
Or may it was me who was lost and felt like I finally found myself with this other soul.
Whatever the reason it might be, It was a feeling that made me feel a different world today,
It made me think of who we become when we grow up.
It was the realization of loosing the little child in us,
And change to an extent that we don’t even recognize it.
I am fortunate to be able to reconnect to that child today,
I am fortunate to feel grateful to such a thing that happened to me this day.
It was not his eyes but his soul looking through his eyes deep into my soul,
And asking me where have I been for so long almost lost in this world.
It was hard to wake up on Saturday morning as I am not a morning person usually. But after looking at those flowers and kangaroos in the Wildlife park it felt so worth. And no, even before that I remember now when I left home and got to the main street, I spotted many riders on their bikes. It was nice to see so much happening in the morning. It was so motivating to see so many people up and on their way to a fresh start of the day. I think I have started considering to be a morning person. Although the only issue is that I don’t sleep early and then it becomes even harder to get up early. But I guess I am going to make a way in that direction too. But anyways coming to the point I had planned a tour this Saturday to Nelson Bay, Port Stephen. It is a few hours drive north from Sydney and I had heard a lot about the sand dunes there so here I was heading to the beautiful view from the sand dunes – one of the longest in Australia next to the beautiful beach. We made a quick stop at the wildlife park and I did feed some Kangaroos there. It was such a beautiful start of the morning. Then next thing I knew we were walking around Nelson Bay and getting some food before boarding this big boat called ‘Moonshadow’. Then soon we were on the way to spot some dolphins. We did get a chance to see some of them but not so close as I did see them last weekend in Jarvis Bay. Here are some pics if you want to look at them from my last trip.
Then after coming back from the cruise we headed to ride some sand It was so scary to look at the high Sand dunes let alone thinking about riding them. But then I saw so many people going to the top of the sand dunes with a board that I got tempted with my camera mounted on my head – all determined to take chance and try this new adventure. And as I am not used to of slopes and last time I tried a new sport I did suffer from concussion (Concussion couldn’t stop me from skiing – Pain is temporary, but if I quit then it will last forever) , not that I am complaining but it was just a moment of fear for me when I sat there at the top with my board just looking down and thinking why the hell I even have to do this. Then after few minutes it all looked good and something happened in my mind and a voice said just go and there I was doing sand boarding. And after once it became like a second nature to get up and walk back with my board to the highest possible place and slide down. It was so much fun and yes I shouted as loud as possible to emphasis on how much fun I had doing this. I missed it the most when we left in a 4 wheel drive to get back to our tour bus. And I think I might go back one day to try it again as it is a lot of fun and if you haven’t tried then I recommend it to adrenalin junkies and adventure lovers.
You are brave to come on your own to Australia,
I hear this all the time as I chose to live and work here for a while.
But it didn’t happen overnight and it was a result of many thoughts and decisions,
Life doesn’t change overnight and it is a result of many paths you choose.
Just like you can only change the direction of the ship by steering it a bit each time,
The course would change slowly and you might still see the old destination.
But things will start making changes and amazing things will be on the way,
So don’t worry if you have started trying but don’t see a result, believe me you are half way there.
I was born in a small town where people live in a different world,
Everything on TV seems big and distant for us, there in the small community.
It was a dream of mine to see the world and the desire to live it up,
It was the dream to prove myself and live a happy life after.
It was the spirit of a child inside me that kept me going,
Every time anyone considered me mad to travel alone or to even think about it,
I knew there is another world that exists out there where people think like I do,
With whom I can relate myself and any ways who wants to be normal as normal is boring anyways.
We live normal life almost everyday till we decide to change the course of our life,
And the moment we do it it’s not normal anymore, it’s not boring anymore.
It opens up the plethora of choices and gives momentum to the long-lived dreams,
It gives you the wings to see the beauty in everything and write your own destiny.
When I came to Sydney I had no clue how my life is going to be other than a fainted dream of freedom,
Its only later I realized what I really like after having lived a life of other’s choices.
It was only after having realized that its ok to be happy and think about yourself before any one else at times,
I did make changes in my life to make it better and happier as a step by step process.
And it goes in an order of health, security, mind and heart I would say,
As you need to be healthy and secure to start thinking planning and then feel the great things.
It is necessary that we look after ourselves before we think of looking after any one else in the world,
We are our biggest responsibility that we often tend to forget and we can’t make any one happy till we are happy.
I had to learn that although it took many jolts and hiccups along the way,
I did happen to experience both hurt and happiness on my journey.
Not yet last but still towards the dream of my life I fly now with zeal and happiness,
I share this with you today just as a thank you to make it worthwhile to get here when I talk to you and feel glad.
I thank to every one I have been in touch in my life as they are the reason I am here now,
They are the reason I am living in the very blessed moment of my life.
It’s not the resources but the people who made my journey a big learning curve,
I still have to learn many lessons in life but I am sure I am doing the best I can and so are you.
[Note: Today I am feeling gratitude towards everyone in the world I have ever met or talked as because of each and every one of them I am happy today and working towards my dreams. Hence this poem is dedicated to all of you and many others who have been part of my life.]
You are my angle,
You are my friend.
All you got to remember is,
Some one loves you my friend.
You bring the smile to others,
You are precious as jewel to someone.
You are not nobody,
You are everything to someone.
Life can be hard at times,
But you can change the way you look at it.
Life is not easy all the time,
But then you need to start living the moment.
All you need to do is to remember to smile,
And think of the best things happened to you in life.
Rest would be done by the universe,
As it would bring an end to your miseries in life.
You have to remember that some one loves you,
More than you can ever imagine,
Someone loves you,
Even though it’s not physically close to you.
You came to this world and life happened to you,
You came to this world and you learned about yourself.
You fall in and out of love and you discovered about other,
You still haven’t figured it all out but you should know that you are always loved.
Life is the biggest sign of love,
If there was no love for you then you won’t be alive.
If there was no love in the air,
You won’t be breathing calmly.
Just broaden your definition of love,
And think of the times you have loved drinking water when thirsty.
Think about those days you have loved to be in your comfy bed,
And the warmth it has provided you after a long tiring day.
You have loved and you have been loved,
That’s the very reason you are here and living this life.
You are supposed to be here to love life and live it up,
So get that sad thought out of your mind that no one loves you my friend. As we all love you very much.
Item Number #42 - Watch an open air cinema
I always wanted to watch open air cinema hence I changed an item on my bucket list ‘Sleep in luxury with animals at the zoo or sleep in a wartime bunker’ with this. As I realized when I was trying to fit 50 things in my bucket list that time I had to add some random things to increase the number even though I wasn’t quiet keen on those. Hence with time I have changed few of the items on my bucket list to fit something I really wanted to do but didn’t think about it while collating the list.
So yes I was able to complete this bucketlist item when I was in Darwin and I watched an awesome movie ‘Crocodile Dundy’ in this place of crocodiles. It was an amazing experience in the warm night under the stars. Here is a snippet from my day in Darwin – Place to relax and enjoy Crocodile Dundy
Item Number #45 – Write 50 poems
It was one of the other items that I replaced that was watching cricket as I realized that I don’t even like Cricket much. Yes, it sounds odd being an Indian that I don’t like this game. But I am more of an individual sports person and specially racing like bike racing, horse racing, car racing etc. So finally here I am with more than 35 poems at hand. I am glad that I did make it a bucket list option as since then I could not stop writing poems and some people even felt they might have gone to a wrong website after seeing all these poems all of a sudden.
I have written poems before but in my own native language – Hindi. And I was not sure whether I would be able to connect to people when writing in English or not. Because writing an article is different from composing a poem and you need to feel it inside to be able to write and express yourself. And what can I say – your love and appreciation did make me compose some of the best poems of my life I had ever thought of. ‘I miss myself when I miss you’ was one of them. So here is an indexed list of all the poems composed so far. I would keep editing it till we reach 50 as part of my bucket list. I hope you enjoy reading them. And yes one more thing my name (Kavita) also means the poem. Have a lovely day friends!
- I am in a whirlpool
- Love is the very reason I live
- Adventure, Fear, Wisdom and Courage – All in one team (This is why I do what I do)
- Love – For all those beautiful souls who yearn to feel it deep in their heart
- It Hurts
- What’s your aim in life?
- Are you alright?
- Life is more than just the one kind of love
- Life is hilarious if you look from the right angle
- Who am I?
- His soul looking through his eyes deep in my soul
- Life doesn’t change overnight – It is a result of many paths you choose
- Someone loves you
- What do you do when life is a mess
- I feel connected with the whole universe – Love is the answer
- Story of my life behind the scene – Waiting for happy days
- It does take over sometimes no matter how happy you are
- Its a beautiful sunny day
- Its hard being a woman in a nation dominated by Men
- They say break up is like death of someone
- Let it go
- Love is in the air
- Love that showed me a different world
- Time to Snooze
- Self Preservation
- Love life and live life – nothing else to loose but life
- I look at you and I feel love
- Here I go – travel the world
- Life is like a bundle of joy, if you choose to accept
- My words are the simple reflection of who I am
- Who am I? I want to know me
- Dear Anger, All I have is love if you like to embrace from me!
- How are you feeling? I am very tired now
- Why does it hurt so much?
- Silence is all I have
- Answers to my questions – The war within
- I wanna go away – Coz traveling makes me happy
- I want to be rich
- The Whole Universe Lies Deep in my Heart
- Leap of Faith
- Where is home?
- Crying heart doesn’t let the night disturb and rolls into itself to cry some more
- Entering the Golden Gate might Change this Life
- A tribute to those soldiers who gave their lives for us
- Dream Again
- I don’t want to love you, Not because I don’t like you
- Peaceful Warrior
- You my friend is one of the best thing that happened to me
- I miss myself when I miss you
Here is also a link for my bucket list for 2013 if you haven’t had a look. My Promise to live life – My BucketList 2013
A little bit different and also another post about the fears I have in my life with a reflection of other reader’s experiences along with it. My Fears
What do you do when life is a mess,
No one really explains this part well.
Everyone tells you how to make things better,
But no one really talks about living well while in a mess.
At times it does happen that your life is a mess,
And it is not going to change automatically.
But you are still alive and you still got to go along with this mess,
And that’s when you need to know how to survive and not get trashed.
Go to a pub and get sloshed,
Yes some would definitely give you this advice.
It is a good way to pass time but not going to make any difference,
The next day you will still wake up to the same mess with a sore head in addition.
So what do you do when your life is a total mess,
Ok, that means you have a problem at hand.
You can either solve it or leave it,
Depending upon its possibility to be solved.
Now that you know it’s not easy to be solved,
So you take a good look at it and try to live with it.
Its like living with a friend who is not your favourite,
And does irritate you now and then.
But the reason you are living with that friend is,
That person is part of your life.
And you don’t want to ruin everything else during that phase,
Similarly give yourself some space around this mess and treat yourself well.
Meanwhile slowly look at the mess from different angle and see what can you do,
I sometimes just watch a movie or do something that makes me happy.
For some shopping can also be a solution,
Whereas for me travelling does wonder.
Whatever mess it is I know you would worry so I wouldn’t say don’t,
Whatever feeling you have you would feel worst on the face of Earth, I don’t deny that.
I would say one thing though that it will get over as everything does,
So think about that and smile on your victory to come in future whether near or far.
It might not clean up the mess but living with it will get easier,
It might not resolve everything but your head would get lighter.
Sometimes solving things is not the solution,
At times living with it and accepting it is a bigger relief not to mention.
So good luck with your mess I have my share,
But I know my friend you can do it and you will do it.
And guess what I am going to live with mine as you do it,
And one day when the mess would be gone then we can definitely talk about it.
[Note: I wrote that some time back when I was a bit upset but posting now when I am already feeling much better.]
Not the one just reserved for a man,
Not the one just reserved for family,
Not the one just for the friends,
But the one that you give out to the universe.
I feel love that makes me feel awesome,
I feel good and my heart feels like melting with it,
I feel love and want to give it to everyone,
I feel love and its just an amazing feeling.
I smile and my eyes twinkle,
I smile and hide myself to make sure no one is looking,
I can’t stop feeling this joy in my heart,
And guess what I don’t want to stop anymore.
Its after a while I feel I have seen sunshine again,
And my heart is brimming with it making me smile,
I can feel like smiling ear to ear,
There is no reason you might say but I say I am alive and that’s enough.
We don’t need no reason to smile as its the greatest gift we have been given,
We don’t need to wait for something to happen for us to smile,
We can laugh for no reason as its for us and not for any one else,
We can smile in the places where no one is watching as it is to make our self feel good.
I feel love and I feel connected to you and every one else,
I feel so much love that I feel like the happiest person on the planet,
I want you to smile and remember the happiest moment in your life,
Seize that moment that reminds you of how happy you can be.
I wish to bring a smile on your face and the feeling of joy in your heart,
But do yourself a favour and let yourself get swept away in that feeling for a while,
That will make a difference not just in your day but it will change the way you life is going,
Trust me love is the answer to all your worries and love is the way you should always be living.
Apologies first of all for not writing here my friends. It was one hell of a week with some sad times when evening were spent locked away in my room first time in a year. I did need a good weekend and guess what I did get one and here are some snaps from one of those days from my wonderful weekend.
I booked this tour some time back as since I was back from Darwin and India it was getting a bit boring to stay home doing nothing and here I was away for a day tour to explore more of my own surroundings in Sydney. It was a tour to Jervis Bay that I had always wanted to do. It included sightseeing to Stanwell Park, Kiama Beach, Jervis Bay and Kangaroo Valley. So much in one tour, I know right.
I had already been to first two but visiting again was refreshing as well. I didn’t expect much but after watching some beautiful dolphins my day turned into a bliss really. It was love and just love in my heart and in my mind as I knew that dolphins can feel your feelings and come to you if they feel the good vibration and I think my trick worked as there were so many out there, the whole nursery actually. I just loved to see them playing, swimming and going in circles near our boat.