Its amazing I think, how we lock ourselves in these imaginary restrictions and boundaries in life and keep ourselves from the true happiness and freedom. It is our ultimate right to be free but how many of us are truly free and do things that we love or like. We might be free in the books but in reality we do have many locks on our soul and mind. How many days do we get up and think what I would love to do today? Not many of us really, or atleast go to work with a happy mind and soul. We need to start thinking of life as a journey and realize that there are better ways to live through it – by enjoying and accepting the moments, people and feeling that we come across. Life is short – every one is telling us to be happy but can I do that for you? No, you have to help yourself as each and every individual is enjoying their own journey. Parents can guide and help the children but as human being we interact with each other but the path of life is something we have to choose and we have to walk through it. Its not difficult, believe me or believe yourself for it as what you will think is what you will become eventually.
Break these locks and free yourself, there is a beautiful world out there if you havn’t realized yet. It’s waiting for you to cherish each and every moment you spend as human being and before you move on from this state of being to another and merge into the universe again. Pain can be there in your life but are you going to stop living then? You are still here on Earth, on this journey then why not try to make this experience worthwhile. And once this journey of life will end then you would not have a chance to go back and change the way you lived it. Also do not try to change your past as it is against nature and that’s the way nature has created the whole universe that we move on and do not go back in time ever. If nature doesnt change it then why would you. After all who you are today is because of your past. And how do you think you could have been any better if something else would have happened. If you can’t change the past then why waster your present by thinking about it as then again the next time you look back the current present will be your past and you would realize you havn’t achieved much still. And this is the cycle that will go on forever. Get out of this rut and accept what has happened. Then only you will be able to live in present and then this present will become a better past in your life. That is what I am doing as I realized only recently in my life that I was in the rut of this cycle and was repenting most of the things that have happened in past. I was trying my best to change it and was fighting against nature without realizing that it is impossible.
Now here I am, accpeting my past with my head high – why? Because I got through all the bad things that came to my life and most of them must have been my own imaginazations of worst as everything happens to us is the only thing that can happen to us in life, universe provides us what we ask for – either conciously or sub-conciously. And I can say that I have been through some kind of hell in my life if any exisit really. So if you think that you want to live a full life before this journey ends then do it now – Make a decision to live and you will eventually. You do not have to spend money for that, you don’t even have to travel or buy anything, all you have to do is see this life as a journey and all the bad things as accidents that happened in some point of time while you were in this train of your body that is moving forward every moment you breathe. And you can either choose to shut your eyes or you can choose to open your eyes and enjoy the view and feel the universe with your heart, soul and mind. I am doing it and I can say that it feels magestic. I am still practicing this as we are trained to do stuff and that’s how we start working in life all the time which makes it hard to understand the truth and see the reality around. But I will share my journey with you all as it would be great if any one even tries to live life fully as that would start the process and you wouldn’t be far from ultimate peace.
Next day another adventure was waiting for me. Being a naive to sea and swimming I was having a ball with all the water activities. Now it was time for some cave diving. It sounded so exciting that I could not stop myself from booking next day trip to another island to do the Cave Diving. Although many questions started bothering me after I booked for it – Will I have to stay underwater too long, do I need to be a good swimmer to be able to do that, will it be scary, will I be ok after doing it. But I was rest assured that I will be fine as there were two guides and all the fellow travellers knew how to swim so to be honest I had more trust on others than myself.
Next morning I was even more thrilled thinking – here I was in the middle of this big island with strangers doing stuff that is another name of peak adventure. Best thing ever, I told myself. We were all geared with the swim suit and a life jacket after boarding the boat that was going to take us to this another island. We arrived at our destination. The water was crystal blue and the view was breathtaking. It made me feel envious of the people who were living there, thinking that they are able to live in paradise every day.
Finally we climbed the steps towards the Qara ni Bukete (Pregnancy Cave), named so because it does not allow any woman who is trying to hide she is pregnant. It was a bit dark in the cave but we could see some light coming through the slits. I jumped into the water in the cave after a little bit of hesitation with my life jacket on of course. I thought maybe this is it? It was easy. But nope there was another cave through this bigger cave where we could only go through a narrow passage under water.
Two guys went in with the guide. We did not have any proper equipment for diving so we had to hold our breath for at least 30 seconds and the guide was supposed pull us underwater towards the other cave. Once on the other side the guide will go back and bring another person. Now it was the test as I could not go under water without my life jacket. Guide was back and wanted one of us to go with him. Everyone in the group started staring at each other as no one was sure how risky it is in the dark. I was scared but excited and didn’t realise when I got voice and said ‘I will come’ to guide. He stared at my life jacket and asked me to take it off. I told him that I am not a good swimmer and he smiled (maybe he was thinking I must be joking as I had come for a cave diving after all) and assured me that I will be fine. I took off my life jacket and the guide took my hand and asked me to take a deep breath. I followed his instruction and he pulled me under water and I felt all I can do is trust him. I could feel my body moving through this narrow tunnel, touching the walls of it. Soon when I was still in dazed state I was on the other side of the cave. He looked at me and smiled again and asked me where I am from. He must have sensed my fear. I told him that I am from India, living in Australia for few months and have just started to learn swimming. He looked amazed but asked me to leave his hand as he had to go to bring other people now. I was scared again as I was in this cave in dark and with no floating device to hold on to. I quickly swam across the cave with my breast stroke techniques and tried to hold the holes in the wall like a lizard.
Other girls also came to this side after seeing me. They must have thought that when a non-swimmer can do it then they can as well. After few moments when my eyes got adjusted then I realised most of the people in the group who chose to come were here and we had to swim to the other side where the guide was taking us. There was a small area where there was some light coming from a slit and it felt very nice to see few rays of light as they were like rays of hope. It was an amazing experience of my life. We came back and I was still dazed with the whole day adventure. Next day I had to leave the island and head back to home. I was overwhelmed by the welcoming behaviour of the people in Fiji. I left but the memories stayed with me forever.
If I would be asked to choose how I would like to live then I think I would like to live like Fijian. People in Fiji are the most happy and content I have ever experienced. They are happy with what they have and live life to the fullest. No pressure and no regrets. I fell in love with the place and the people in the very first visit. It was my first trip to another country at my own. It was not that I was not old enough but it was moreover the culture I came from (India) that people thought that I am mad when I told them that I am going on holidays by myself. But it was the best trip of my life so far. It was adventure, fun, exhausting, risky, and emotional and a lot more in one package.
When I landed in Fiji I was welcomed by the very authentic music at the airport so I took it as a good sign. First mission was to find the cab sent by my backpacker in Nadi. Oh yes I forgot to tell that it was the first time I had decided to backpack while travelling, may be that was another reason people from work find it weird that why I was interested in living with strangers as in India it’s not that common at the moment. But living in Sydney for 8 months had made me a little bit Aussie I would say 🙂 So there I was on my first backpacking adventure in a foreign country. But my looks gives me some advantages when travelling to such countries as people think I am one of them as long as I don’t open my mouth of course.
I was picked by the cab on time and I arrived to my backpacker, already booked for 2 days as I had thought of travelling the land and book the accommodation as I go. I had to be a bit brave to hand them over my passport and expensive things to put into the safe when I was living there. But then I realised that it was common. I had no clue how I shall start the conversation with the strangers while having my dinner in the backyard of my place. So I just smiled at couple of fellow backpackers and finally retired to my place for a good night sleep. The next day I wanted to take the public transport so I asked a guy working in the backpacker and found he was interested in telling all about himself while showing me the way to the bus stop. I found it very moving the way the people there trust you and tell you about themselves.
I loved the ride in the bus as there was some pop music being played in it. There was a natural air conditioner in the bus as there were no windows in it. It had got a bell attached to a long string that goes along from the front to the back on both sides of the bus to help people signal the driver to stop it. It was just amazing how things were working here. Then unfortunately our bus broke down and gave me an opportunity to talk to some locals who were very excited to talk to me making me feel special. We waited for 20 minutes and got another bus to get us to the market where I was planning to do some shopping for fruits and possibly few other articles as I was just travelling with my carryon bag and no more. And the limit is just 7 KG hence I usually carry just some essentials and few clothes when on holidays. I will explain some more adventure related to this habit in other post. I was touched by the courtesy of a lady who in the bus realised that it is the first time I am in Fiji and showed me around the place and stayed with me for 2 hours. I was thinking that she might be a guide and thought of offering her some money. But she told me that she was just helping. It was amazing how she took so much time from her day and helped me to get all the things I needed from the market and showed me around.
After two days I shifted to another backpacker as I was not very happy with the first one. This new place was more like home as there was a Kava ceremony arranged here and I end up drinking enough to go to sleep after some time. I met two girls here who were very friendly and first time I was talking to someone also travelling like myself. Next day my opinion was changed to travel the land by my experience of getting into bus and sitting there for few hours to get to Lautoka from Nadi in hot and sweaty weather and I end up booking a tour to the islands in Fiji.