I burn, I churn, I stop and close my eyes,
I start again but it doesn’t go away.
I look around and the world is different,
I am at the other end of the wall.
The turmoil inside takes over,
I want to have a bubble around me.
I want to let this fire out of me,
I don’t hate anyone, I don’t want any harm
It’s just the feeling that is making me sick
I want to throw it up
It is burning me constantly and soaking my hope
The world is not yet over but it’s eating me alive
I want to run, I want to shout, I want to climb the highest building and hide there
I want to close myself from the world and sleep
Sleep and rest my soul for a while
I want to swim, deep in the water
I want to get rid of this fire and live again
Live a life of pure affection, live a dream of hope and passion
Why we say that God lives in the sky and angels can fly. A thought occurred to me that may be because spiritually we become heavy if we have negative feelings. Remember whenever we are sad or feeling bad then we feel so heavy inside and don’t have any energy to do anything. I think usually we all have been in that position so we can relate to it.
What if we take out all the negative feelings and energy and fill ourselves with love, compassion and many other positive feelings. We will become lighter than air. And we will be full of energy as well. It would be so much easier to even fly then as we would be lighter and that will help us to go up in the air and abundance of energy will help in opening our wings (spiritually) and fly far away. I can see the analogy that angels can fly like birds because angels are pure and full of good emotions only.
And now that we think that God lives in the sky somewhere and heaven is up there. Human claimed everything unreachable either God or Evil. Like the sun was a mystery so people started worshiping it. And night became a scary time when ghosts come alive. Same I think is the case with sky. As we could easily reach anywhere in the land and water but didn’t have enough resources to reach the sky, hence we declared it as a place where God lives. What if so called God lives among us or somewhere in the earth or water.
I know I am questioning the old beliefs. Although we have won all the places not and even being able to reach other planets but I am trying to undo all the learning in order to understand the truth and any other possibilities.